the first crushing defeat
She said she's made up her mind. She's decided she doesn't love me any more and that it's over. "Come over - but only to say goodbye" and "We can just be friends - but you shouldn't mind if I see somebody else" were just some of the heart-rending words I heard on Monday.
More cruel were the words "There is somebody who likes me. I don't love him, but I like him too" left me with a nervous tremour for a heart-beat.
The only way I'm still surviving and am sane is by keeping telling myself that I will change her mind when I get there.
I WILL CHANGE HER MIND WHEN I GET THERE! SHE WILL LOVE ME AGAIN! I WILL HAVE MY LIFE BACK!
The trip's on the 12th (I hope, if the visa and the ticket work out). That's one day after she returns from her christmas holidays at home. But the worst bit is her mind. I pray to God that she hasn't built so many walls that I am unable to break them all down.
But then I know I will win her back. I surely will!
More cruel were the words "There is somebody who likes me. I don't love him, but I like him too" left me with a nervous tremour for a heart-beat.
The only way I'm still surviving and am sane is by keeping telling myself that I will change her mind when I get there.
I WILL CHANGE HER MIND WHEN I GET THERE! SHE WILL LOVE ME AGAIN! I WILL HAVE MY LIFE BACK!
The trip's on the 12th (I hope, if the visa and the ticket work out). That's one day after she returns from her christmas holidays at home. But the worst bit is her mind. I pray to God that she hasn't built so many walls that I am unable to break them all down.
But then I know I will win her back. I surely will!
posted by the grim sleeper at 7:51 PM
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